I’m feeling dread just thinking about getting started.
Usually, I’m thinking that I’ll do it as soon as I do something else. Or I’m thinking that I don’t know what I’m doing or just thinking I don’t want to do it. I just dread getting started.
“Dread” is a good word to describe the feeling many people have when they are trying to get started doing something that is aversive for them. Can you just sit with the feeling, try not to judge it, and then shift your attention to the sensations in your body as you move ahead with your task?
For example, if you remember you need to do your meditation practice but just don’t feel like getting started, notice the feeling of “not wanting to” and then move your attention to your body as you sit or stand in that moment. If you are standing, take a seat and notice how that feels in your body. Notice any thoughts you have about not wanting to do it or not knowing how to do it or liking it or not liking it. Anything at all can come up. As soon as you start becoming aware of these physical sensations and your thoughts and feelings, you ARE MEDITATING. You’ve already started. Perhaps then you can carry on for a few minutes and see what happens.